Haley’s Giggle

Haley Gets the OK

February 27th, 2007

Haley was just given the go-ahead by the doctor today to be admitted this coming Monday, March 5th.  The first day of treatment is delayed a day, and will now start Tuesday the 6th. The schedule is as follows: 8 days of chemotherapy, one day of rest, and then the transplanton the 15th.  The transplant, amazingly enough, is a simple IV put through her central line.  There’s no surgery involved.  So that’s a relief.  The nurses checked out the line, and except for a few stitches being pulled out (she’s a squirmer as well as a giggler), it looks fine.  I have two more times that i have to clean the line before we go back to the hospital, where they will resume taking care of it. Thank goodness. I always had a thought in my head that (brace yourself parents) maybe I should have become a doctor like my other sisters.  But after simply changing the bandage, I realize I’m much better with the non-bloody type situations.

But aside from the general anxiety I feel as the start day approaches, there is one aspect that is really getting me down.  For those who haven’t seen my daughters interact, I will just say they are quite the pair. They are extremely close.  I think it’s a bit unusual for young kids that close in age (2 years apart), and with the older daughter being such a Momma’s girl, to be so close.  And yet they are. Anna is extremely doting, loving, and really takes care of Haley as much as she is able to do so. And it just breaks my heart that Anna will not be allowed to see Haley for the entire time we are in New York.  People have suggested webcam talking between the sisters. But that doesn’t come close to the same thing as when Anna takes both of Haley’s hands and leads her in songs a giggles.  There is nothing like the sight of Anna smooshing her face right into Haley’s cheek, saying “you’re so cute!” There’s nothing like Anna going over to Haley when she’s crying, giving her a hug, and saying “it’s ok, you’ll be ok. Esta bien (learned that from Dora).”  There’s nothing like Haley laughing uncontrollably at Anna’s living room “performances,” be it singing, dancing, or the modeling of Anna’s favorite outfit: her pink tutu and orange crocs.  It literally breaks my heart.  I know this is all for the best, and that the more we keep Haley in a sterile environment, the lesser the chance of infection and worse. But. As their mother. As the one who gets to wrap them up in her arms while they’re both giggling with each other. The one who lowers Haley so Anna can kiss her and hug her good night. It just breaks my heart.

9 Comments »

  1. Jen Bradley says

    I have nothing to say, but I wanted to register that I’m here, reading, sympathizing as best I can, wishing everyone well.

    March 2nd, 2007 | #

  2. Margy says

    Hi Ranan, Tansy, Anna, and Haley,

    We just wanted to send our best wishes from Los Angeles. We hope that everything will go smoothly during the next few months and that Haley will be 100% OK soon!

    Love,
    Margy, Jeremy & Julia

    March 2nd, 2007 | #

  3. Mira Zimet says

    I am thinking of you all the time and sending prayers and hopes and wishes that Tuesday and the next few weeks (months and years) goes spectacularly. Love you guys, Mira

    March 3rd, 2007 | #

  4. Cristina Cassidy says

    Your post was so touching, girlfriend. Maybe, too, you could have Anna keep a special daily journal for Haley, with pictures and thoughts to share with Haley when she eventually does see her. It has to be so hard on you, though.

    Also, if Anna could kiss a picture of Haley every night it might help. Please do send a multitude of besos y abrazos to all. Tuesday I will go to Saint Raymond’s, a new Catholic Church up the street, and make sure that there is a candle burning for your sweet giggle girl, and one for her big sis, too. I’m not Catholic, but I figure G-d won’t mind. Much love coming at you…

    March 5th, 2007 | #

  5. Lisa Singer says

    We know you must be so anxious and scared but we are praying that all will go better than well and Anna and Haley will be playing and laughing together in no time. Please let us know if there is anything we can do.
    Lisa and Sid

    March 5th, 2007 | #

  6. Dana Little Jackson says

    Awww…. I love those images you described. Being one of 3 girls, I understand that bond you described. It’s wonderful. I know your heart is broken over this. Anna will be happy with her cousins while Haley is healed, and then they’ll be back together again, and imagine the joy you will feel when you can watch them together, knowing that Haley is well and the separation is over. I am thinking of you and Ranan and your precious girls! Dana

    March 6th, 2007 | #

  7. Susan & HowardStein says

    Tansy & Ranaan,
    We are incredibly touched by all that you are going through, the power of Haley’s giggle, the power of your ability to share this experience with us, and of course by the power of the humor that you capture even in the midst of this very difficult time. We want you to know that you are in our hearts, our thoughts, & our tefilot full time.
    Love,
    Susan & Howard

    March 13th, 2007 | #

  8. Rena and Michael Friedman says

    Precious “Well” Family,

    I am not sure if you received the previous note from us but we are more than happy to repeat our expression of love and admiration of each one of you.

    Hopefully you feel hugged and are periodically catching the kisses that are directed toward you from Skokie.

    Thanks for sharing Haley’s giggles with us. She and all of you are part of our thoughts and prayers.

    Much love,

    Rena and Michael

    March 14th, 2007 | #

  9. Debra (Price) Spivak says

    With you in spirit and so inspired by all I’ve read. So glad to here Mrs. Z is in town. May Haley have a refuah shleima [full recovery] and only remember this through your blog.

    Love, Debra

    March 14th, 2007 | #

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