Central Line Chaos
In order to keep Haley’s central line clean, I will have to learn to be as quick as a thief, steady as a surgeon, and calm as a deep breath. That time has not yet come.
Three days a week, I must change the dressing of Haley’s central line (essentially an open wound that still bleeds), and twice a week I must flush the two IV lines that dangle from her body, all the while blocking out her cry that I’m causing, that hits me right in the womb.
The hospital has set me up with home nursing care– they provide all of the dressing and IV supplies, as well as provide great moral support while I learn a task that must become first nature. ”Joy” the nurse was a joy, and I find comfort in how she guides me through this process. Part Mary Poppins, part Martha Stewart. I had to flush her lines by myself the other day when I saw blood in one of them.
I hope I get used to looking at a feeder line going through my baby’s body. So far, I haven’t. I finish changing her line, and Haley’s cries turn into uncontrollable giggles. I wish I could do that. I pick her up and hold her close, so she can calm me down.
Joy/Mary Poppins/Martha Stewart has a giggle like Mrs. Doubtfire.
February 13th, 2007 | #
I am betting that you will handle all the required tasks with skill, love and a gentle hand to mitigate discomfort to Haley. She will feel your love and positive energy and that will be a source of healing–this I truly believe and IF ANYONE CAN DO IT, ITS YOU!!!!!! Her picture is beautiful and her spirit is strong. If there is anything I can do, I’m ready willing and able.
February 14th, 2007 | #
What a gorgeous photo of your precious Haley!! She looks so beautiful and strong and giggly! We will be thinking of you every day as you hug her and love her and mother her in the most wonderful way as the treatment heals her. And you’re right, she will not remember this years from now when she’s skipping around Turtle Park. Thanks so much for keeping us all posted with the website. love, Dana, Will, Cov and Haley’s friend Ellie
February 15th, 2007 | #
Haley is so beautiful! Thanks for putting up this website so we can stay tuned to what is happening with you guys. You guys are amazing and Haley is lucky to have such loving and strong parents by her side through this. Can’t wait to see her giggling her way through the toddler years!
February 16th, 2007 | #